Can I kiss you? Can I kisss youuu?

I've been thinking about this 'totally hilarious' consent presentation for a bit now. At first I was a little 'bleh' about it. I guess I've seen too many old-fashioned Hollywood movies where the hero grabs his girl and plants a kiss on her, whether she wants it or not. (Naturally, that was male/female...but that's for a completely different post.) And because of the amazing kiss, her reserves are melted and they realize their mutual love. Etc. I've always thought that was really rather dreamy.

But what if he asked her first? Wouldn't that still be sexy? He asks her and then she responds with a kiss of her own!! I think that's dreamy.

Still, I have trouble relating it all back to my own life. I don't really ever find myself in anything but hookups with people I don't care about. So I guess the respect thing doesn't enter my head when I'm completely wasted and getting hit on. I'm generally more concerned with not throwing up and keeping my clothes on than sloppy kissing.

Not very long ago, I resigned myself to try being a slut. Only now I realize that I don't want that. I guess I'm slut bipolar. I want no more drama and no more douchebags in my life! (One in the same?) I want a good guy to actually be interested in me. One that I find attractive!

Isn't that one of the most crushing experiences!? You're with a friend or two and they find you this 'really cute guy' that'd you'd be 'perfect' with...and then they go onto facebook. Now's when you find out that your dream date is totally not cute. And you're stuck between a rock and an ugly. Do you act 'bitchy' and say that that guy isn't goodlooking enough for you? Or do you just silently resign yourself to him? I often do the second. And then feel like crap. I don't know if there's much that's worse for the ego than having someone suggest your 'level/league' for you. Bleeeh.

And what is up with that league shit!? It makes probably no sense to me why we have to grade everyone. Why can't anyone be with anyone? Stupid stupid.

This is why my back-up plan is to be a nun. I always wanted a uniform.