It Ain't That Cute, RiRi.

Does anyone remember that SNL skit that was something like "I'm single and LOVING IT!" where everyone really hated being single.  I think that's me right now.  Except not really since I'm being open about hating it.  So maybe I'm like the end of the sketch?  Anyway, I decided that being single isn't really fun.  At all.  In fact, I really dislike it so much that I almost want to be in a relationship just to be in one.  Yes, I know that's pretty crazy like wearing latex anywhere but on your dick.  But I can't help it.  

And this is how I realized that I don't really know how to make a relationship happen.  I pretty much live in a world of women, which isn't doing me any good.  While having a lot of friends, pretty ones at that, is fun... it's not THAT fun.  I wish I could like take a course on it or something!  I'm a good student.  Or read a book, after all, I like to think that I'm occasionally literate.  But that'd make me feel a bit more pathetic than I could handle.  Whole pride nonsense.  

So, I'm about to get into a fight...with myself.  I need to find a way to, as a friend put it, "broaden my horizons" and "open up my options" while still feeling like I'm who I am and making sure I'm comfortable.  Okay, maybe that's not possible.  I suppose uncomfortability is key, right?  I have to move out of my 'comfort zone'...and I guess if that's what it takes, I'll do it.

And so this little introspection makes me feel like Carrie Bradshaw specifically but maybe one of the other 1920312 female leads who narrate TV series with questions about life.  I think that might just be the problem.  Again, women.  At least I don't menstruate.